shitty life

addicted

2004-11-06T21:58:00.000-08:00

i'm moving on...with a bottle of beer beside me! did i become an alcoholic? i don't think so....each one of us have different styles of moving on..mine is a pathetic one...but i don't care, i just don't want to be sober everytime...so back - off! he's an addiction i can no longer afford....we maybe hanging out more recently, but it doesn't mean a thing...not anymore!
besides i dont want to have a miserable life....and i don't want my friends to read my sorry state here all the time! and i have this feeling that if i don't stop whining...they will dumped me also! : )

on a happy note...me and my girlfriends check this new (new for us,i mean) bar, YERO in annapolis...if it's your first time you might have difficulties in finding it...because the area where it is situated is not well lighted! but since we've been looking for a good place to hang out and we've comsumed a lot of time looking for the right place, we found haven in yero....good music, good food, cold beer....need i say more? and yes, by the way.....good crowd! it may have an unusual name for a bar situated in annapolis.....but definitely, YERO spells F-U-N for me! ....besides watching my friend,sining got drunk is always a happy affair......" I really like it here! " : ) hahahaha.....

why now?

2004-10-30T03:12:00.000-07:00

i've finally resolved to myself to forget him...even if it kills me in the process! when i thought i already knew everything about him, new things unfolds in front of me and everytime i tell mysef that i can accept all those things...all the more i keep on getting hurt! it's just not meant to be...even if i've disillusioned myself that it is...it just isn't! i've been fighting for him tooth and nail to my friends, and everybody who hates him, but it just isn't the right thing to do now...because his not mine and he'll never be...he love somebody else and he already have obligations he needs to fulfill...how can i compete with that?!....maybe, i just don't!

he did it again!

2004-10-23T23:16:00.000-07:00

even though i hurt my ankle while playing badminton last wednesday, i really wana go out last night hoping to see him...but of course he didn't even bother to answer my text...i don't know why i'm still surprised when he didn't text me back! not that i mind him not texting for an hour but i had an endless night thinking what he's doing at the moment...it sucks everytime i wait for him...why can't he like me the way i wanted him to...it seems like he can't even offer his friendship...as much as i want more...i'm contented just being friends with him!